I wanted to share this with whoever hasn’t heard it already.

When I was 15 I was in Greystones, Ireland on a mission trip. I was in a really tough place in my life and was on the verge of trying to understand the love that Jesus had for me.

The place we stayed at was right on the coast of the Irish sea. It was a rocky coast line and the most lovely view of the sea and the coast line. One night after a long day in Dublin, I went out around 10pm and sat on a random rock. The sea was still around me. I began telling the Lord about how hard its been this past year. I sat there pouring my heart out to Jesus, and this cloud came against the wind and hovered over me. It was so close that if i were to stand up I could touch it. At that point the still sea around me began to beat up against my rock. Thunder and lightening started going. And the cloud started to rain on me. I’ve never felt Jesus like that ever. His presence was so strong i was shaking and weeping. To make a long story short…. It was my dream to proposed to on that rock someday by my future husband.That rock was a place where i encountered the Love of God, and my life was changed forever.

When i met Brandon I had briefly shared with him my story about my rock. And as time passed Brandon asked the Lord where he was going to ask me to marry him. The Lord brought back to his memory my favorite place in the whole world was a rock on the coast of Ireland.

To make it all short… Brandon and I went to Ireland that summer and on Aug 7th Brandon read me a letter on my rock and asked me to be his wife.

A few months after we got married I was in our 1st apartment and I got to thinking about the date that I met Jesus on that rock in 2001. I ran into my closet and started digging out all my old journals from that year. I remember that right after I encountered Jesus on that rock i wrote him a short note in my journal before i went to bed. I wanted to remember it. I skimmed through my pages and landed on it… date read… Aug 7th 2001. Exactly 4 years to the day without either of us knowing… Brandon asked me to marry me on my favorite place in the whole world. It was the desire of my heart to be engaged on that rock.

I love Jesus and I love that story.

Here is a few pictures and our video..if you haven’t already seen it… its our short version.

One of my hero’s for the last few years has been Elizabeth of the Trinity. A very close friend of mine gave me an out of print book on her life and her writings. She entered the Carmelite monastery in Dijon, France at the age of 21. And at the age of 26 she died from Addison’s disease, and a hormone disorder that causes painful and exhausting symptoms. When I read her book it made me crave the Lord. I thought..”I’ve always wondered what it would look like to be fully perfected in love before I die.” She was one of the most perfect pictures of what love had done to a soul. Inside and out.

I found a long prayer that she prayed. If you love it like i do, maybe print it out and pray it daily… its beautiful and filled with desire.

O my God, Trinity whom I adore; help me to forget myself entirely that I may be established in You as still and as peaceful as if my soul were already in eternity. May nothing trouble my peace or make me leave You, O my Unchanging One, but may each minute carry me further into the depths of Your mystery. Give peace to my soul; make it Your heaven, Your beloved dwelling and Your resting place. May I never leave You there alone but be wholly present, my faith wholly vigilant, wholly adoring, and wholly surrendered to Your creative Action.

O my beloved Christ, crucified by love, I wish to be a bride for Your Heart; I wish to cover You with glory; I wish to love You…even unto death! But I feel my weakness, and I ask You to “clothe me with Yourself,” to identify my soul with all the movements of Your Soul, to overwhelm me, to possess me, to substitute yourself for me that my life may be but a radiance of Your Life. Come into me as Adorer, as Restorer, as Savior.

O Eternal Word, Word of my God, I want to spend my life in listening to You, to become wholly teachable that I may learn all from You. Then, through all nights, all voids, all helplessness, I want to gaze on You always and remain in Your great light. O my beloved Star, so fascinate me that I may not withdraw from Your radiance.

O consuming Fire, Spirit of Love, “come upon me,” and create in my soul a kind of incarnation of the Word: that I may be another humanity for Him in which He can renew His whole Mystery. And You, O Father, bend lovingly over Your poor little creature; “cover her with Your shadow,” seeing in her only the “Beloved in whom You are well pleased.”

O my Three, my All, my Beatitude, infinite Solitude, Immensity in which I lose myself, I surrender myself to You as Your prey. Bury Yourself in me that I may bury myself in You until I depart to contemplate in Your light the abyss of Your greatness.

-Blessed Elizabeth of the Trinity, November 21, 1904

“I have come to my garden, my sister, my spouse…”
-Song of Solomon 5:1

Invisible drops of clear rain fall on my eyelids as I awaken with wonder and ecstasy. My being is enlightened as the drops roll sweetly down my face into the abyss of my soul. I quickly fall fast asleep as I’m taken from my body into a world that many dream of, and most rarely ever see.

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